Saturday, April 26, 2014

A HEARTACHE THAT NEVER GOES AWAY

I never thought it would be me
the joy of my first child
a part of me

memories of a growing child
the joys, trails, disappointments
heartbreaks and heartaches

always there, always a parent
always a Mom
then and now

waves of "Memories, pressed between the pages of my mind
Memories, sweetened thru the ages just like wine
Quiet thoughts come floating down
And settle softly to the ground
Like golden autumn leaves around my feet
I touched them and they burst apart with sweet memories"

the night is silent
with only memories of you
of missed opportunities, guilt, regrets, what if's

those sudden unexpected memories of
holidays, football , Kentucky Derby,
Christmas fudge, St.Patrick's day, Sunday's

times when I can't think of you
for bearing it is too great
that overwhelming rush of grief and disbelief
I never thought it would be me,
Your Ma