Old Age, I decided is a gift……sort of..
I am now probably for the first time in my life the
person I have always wanted to be. Oh, not my body! I
sometimes despair over my body, the wrinkles, the baggy skin and the aching
bones. And often I am taken back by that old person that lives in my mirror
(who looks like my mother!), but I don't agonize over those things for long.
I would never trade my amazing friends, my wonderful life, and
my loving family for less white hair or a flatter belly. As I've aged, I've become more kind, patience towards others, taking this life more seriously in
regards to eternity.
I don’t chide myself for eating that extra cookies, or for not
making my bed. I am entitled to a treat,
to be messy, to be extravagant. I have seen too many people not appreciate the
great freedom that comes with aging.
Whose business is it if I choose to watch TV till 1 AM or play on
the computer until 3 AM and sleep until noon?
I will dance with myself to those
wonderful tunes of the 50's & 60's, and if I, at the same time, wish to
weep over a lost one….. I will. I know I
am sometimes forgetful. But there again, some of life is just as well
forgotten. And I eventually remember the
important things.
Sure, over the years my heart has been broken. How can your
heart not break when you lose a child, or when your children suffers. A heart never broken is pristine and sterile
and will never know the compassion of others during your grief.
I am so blessed to have lived long enough to have my hair
turning white, and to have my youthful laugh be forever etched into grooves on
my face. So many have never laughed, and so many have died before their hair
could turn silver.
As you get older, it is easier to be positive. You care less
about what other people think. The best part is not having to go to work! And, I've even earned the right to be wrong.
I, for one, do have many regrets and what if's. Some say, if they had to live life over -
they'd do it the same. Not me, I would
want to change many things. We were not the best parents, but we did the
"best" we could do.
So, I do not like growing
old. Even though it has set me free. I
like the person I have become. I am not going to live forever; but I will live
eternally with my Heavenly Father in heaven for eternity. But while I am still here, I shall eat dessert every single day. (If I
feel like it)
